Be Still and Know that I am your God

This year was supposed to be a year to encounter God. I was expecting to have a 'burning bush experience'. I thought to myself, "I just need one touch and my destiny will change". For every movement there is a mover. Nothing just happens. God can appear to us but it is up until we turn ourself towards him and walk towards the flame that he will begin to speak. Moose was going one direction and noticed the bush with flames but not burning. God did not speak until Moose turn towards the bush and thats when God said "Moose take of your slippers for this is holy grounds'. 

I had been searching for God. But I felt I was not growing anymore. For me, a month of no change is a long time. I also started feeling pressure from people around me. I started feeling mocked and ridiculed. You know those moments when people want to challenge your faith. Whatever there intentions may have been I really felt extremely challenged. Along with that God was not speaking to me! Here I am, spending an hour a day in 'worship' and 'prayer' (honestly my worship and prayer was so lethargic and my heart was not involved) and God is not speaking. Not only that but I am spreading the good news about a God who is, at the moment ignoring me! Don't get me started on giving! I give my time and money to the point I don't have money to pay my phone bill let alone do anything else of pleasure (God corrected me on giving this Sunday).  

I went to see my Pastor/Prophet for direction. I thought this is the day that the Lord has made ! Whew finally today I am gonna get a word from God to motivate me! I went through accidents, travelled almost an hour 20 ! Only to be given 7:30 mins of the Man of Gods time. Seriously?! I could not even ask all my questions. I was so shocked. He told me to read a Psalm and to fast and "increase the temperature of your prayer". He also told me that my attacks are not because I am weak but because I am strong. At the time last week Thursday, I could not really receive it. I was so annoyed ! I went home and I complained to my sisters and Chenai ! anyone who wanted to listen to me complain. I really felt God had other bigger issues with all his other children facing "real problems", all I wanted is his attention!

 I thought to myself I cant complain to God then I would be like the children of Israel in the wilderness! Its funny how the very thing you think you are not doing is what you are actually doing. Instead of going to God and being honest with him I was going to other people and complaining. I thought I don't want to offend God so its better I "worship and pray for others". Only thing is that I was not broken in the presence of God. I lacked honesty. 

Yesterday I decided to be Honest with God. I told him how I felt ! 

God You say You are the same God today, yesterday and forever right? Does your word not say that when You called the children of Israel to be your people, and the Israelites to call You God, you made a difference between the Egyptians and the children of Israel? Why then is my life no different from those that do not worship you? Why do I have the same problem as those that are yet to love You or have turned their backs on You? Your word says we overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. I have the Blood but where is the power in the blood to give me a testimony? Why should I tell anyone to follow you when I am only giving lip service ? There is nothing to show the manifested power of Your Love except the fruit of the Spirit that I am beginning to bear. Lord your word says that the kingdom of God is not in word but in power. I need the power the shifts and moves situations around. I need a reason to testify of your goodness for your name sake!

For an hour I praise him cried and had a broken spirit and contrite heart. I worshiped Him in spirit and in truth of the mess I felt inside. I was a broken alabaster jar at the feet of my maker. I sit there after an hour of me speaking and crying and I heard Him speak !

Be still, and know that I am God

I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth!The Lord of hosts is with meThe God of Jacob is my refuge. 

Hold on Sisters, press in to His presence He will shift!
Love you,
-Shamiso Muzorewa